today my lunch is nasi goreng
hemo hemo
6am wake up den cook
den bring to office to eat
save $$
>____<

same old day fer me as usual go work and do filling things
help my colleagues, Yuki & Anne
but i felt myself so useless person
i felt myself cant help them at all

in noon, i go pantry eat alone
not bad nasi goreng
hahahaha
myself enjoy it
after finish my lunch i dono why my mind keep think sadness things + hear songs
my tears already start wanna drop
lucky nobody at pantry,just me alone sit at there
my mood become down
very very down

who can understand me????

my colleague, Anne say "why eur face look like got many problems"
yes i got a lot problems but nobody that i can share v......
no parents.....
friends at far apart....
who else i can share??
actually i can do very well in my job
but i fail to do so
cause i keep felt fears

im not fear a lot of works
is fear to face people
i felt myself useless and look down of myself

i don want this felt when this felt can gone????

i MC around 1week because of food poison!!
sum more i dye my hair until so bright
oh my my
i wondering what my supervisor will say me tomorrow
haih

tomorrow need working again
uhhh....
so bore stay at office geh
always nothing to do

just now i dye back to brown colour of my hair
if didnt dye back,supervisor really will gonna KILL me
T____T